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Mum and I had a fight. A big one. I don't think we've ever really had one before. We were just having breakfast and it degenerated. I should have grown out of my rebel phase, she pities gay people, I don't do enough chores, I didn't make a big deal about her birthday, I don't follow rules blindly, I have nice clothes but she doesn't, I'll never have anyfriends because there will always be sexual tension, I don't care about school, I'm too much like my dad (who I've rejected), I dressed up as a man for halloween, she can't change who I am but that doesn't mean she has to like this, she doesn't know what to do with me anymore. I asked her what she wanted from me and she said "nothing."
I am just so shocked right now. I totally didn't see this coming and in hindsight I still really don't. I doubt she'll apologize (and I've already tried). Right now it feels like nothing will be the same again, although apparently it hasn't been the same for quite a while and I've just been too stupid to notice.
And I thought we had a good relationship.
Guess not.
I want to move out.

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tagged by happy_fish_87

RULES: Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.

1) my natural hair colour is light brown
2) I get wierdly proud when I have bruises and try to show them to people
3) I've never had a job in food services
4) I think boas should be in style
5) I name anything of value or that has a face
6) I haven't come up with a name for my new boots yet
7) People think I'm really organized, but I'm actually horribly disorganized, that's why I keep such a detailed daytimer and colour code everything
8) I've never gotten past 3 or 4 on the snogging scale with a guy
9) I kind of like Meatloaf (the musician)
10) I've never actually eaten meatloaf (the food... well, I guess this would go for the musician too)

And I'm not tagging anyone because my brain is tired. But you should all do it anyway.