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[girlnamedxena]

Mum and I had a fight. A big one. I don't think we've ever really had one before. We were just having breakfast and it degenerated. I should have grown out of my rebel phase, she pities gay people, I don't do enough chores, I didn't make a big deal about her birthday, I don't follow rules blindly, I have nice clothes but she doesn't, I'll never have anyfriends because there will always be sexual tension, I don't care about school, I'm too much like my dad (who I've rejected), I dressed up as a man for halloween, she can't change who I am but that doesn't mean she has to like this, she doesn't know what to do with me anymore. I asked her what she wanted from me and she said "nothing."
I am just so shocked right now. I totally didn't see this coming and in hindsight I still really don't. I doubt she'll apologize (and I've already tried). Right now it feels like nothing will be the same again, although apparently it hasn't been the same for quite a while and I've just been too stupid to notice.
And I thought we had a good relationship.
Guess not.
I want to move out.